An oldy but a silly...

hihi....

Saturday, December 27, 2008 

and its continued... Category: Life I cut my god-damn finger... the tip is basically off... and it really hurts. damn you venus razors and your excellent edges...damn you I say. moving on from the razor incident. I was writing before and...I don't feel I really got much said, but sometimes thats what you need to have said.. not much. Its just better out than in. Met someone who...makes me think of him. Not all the time but I do think of him. Don't know what to do about that... he's not ready though... but neither am I so all's well. Which is funny... would still like him to be ready- at least somewhat. I need to... stop writing too much. see you soon. love.

An oldy but a goody 3.

daddy...

Saturday, August 18, 2007 

daddy Current mood:  contemplative I just remember the strangest things sometimes... I just made a cup of Folger's Instant Coffee with half and half in it and it always makes me think of my dad. When I was a little girl he...would make Folgers Coffee with half and half and a little bit of sugar and... when I got to taste that... it was like sipping on a little piece of heaven. It sounds super silly but it tasted so good to me... I was like inbetween 5-7 years old and I always remember waking up in the morning, at 247 Serra Drive in south san francisco, and smelling his cup of coffee. He always got up at like 0500 in the morning and he usually went to bed around 6 or 7 at night. Anyway I would get up and wander into the kitchen, it wasnt a big kitchen but I loved this apartment. I would walk over to him and he would say something like "goodmorning sweetie" or something to that effect- I can't remember but I know it was something sweet. Usually he would make me some breakfast, maybe scrambled eggs maybe cereal. But, always before I ate my breakfast I would most likely sit on his lap and hug him.. and he always smelled so good somehow. He would be in his brown bath robe and I would be in my PJ's and Id sit on his lap and ask to taste some of his coffee. He'd usually let me taste it but I wasn't allowed to have a cup of my own. He was probably worried Id be like the frikking energizer bunny and put on a show for like 8 hours straight. Thats what I did when I was a little girl. I put on a show for my dad, and my mom.. and sometimes my sister when she wasnt sick of looking at me. (she kinda hated me when we were younger...but were all love now ) Anyway, I digress... I miss those mornings with my daddy. It's something that I keep losing more and more cause I remember less and less. He died when I was seven. I miss my mornings with my dad. With the folgers coffee and saturday morning cartoons. Someday we'll be together...

An oldy but a goody 2.

Another old one... this one is about... well... I'll actually leave that to the imagination.

Saturday, December 27, 2008 

and its continued... Category: Life I cut my god-damn finger... the tip is basically off... and it really hurts. damn you venus razors and your excellent edges...damn you I say. moving on from the razor incident. I was writing before and...I don't feel I really got much said, but sometimes thats what you need to have said.. not much. Its just better out than in. Met someone who...makes me think of him. Not all the time but I do think of him. Don't know what to do about that... he's not ready though... but neither am I so all's well. Which is funny... would still like him to be ready- at least somewhat. I need to... stop writing too much. see you soon. love.

An oldy but a goody...

So I thought that I would share some of my older bloggs that I had on my myspace page. So here come's one:

Sunday, January 04, 2009 

emotions... Current mood:emotional Category: Romance and Relationships is a song by Mariah Carey... but it's also a pretty good way to describe where Im at... Emotions are running over all over the place... so much going on in my mind and my heart... confusing and beautiful and wonderful... and... emotional. Another song that comes to mind is one by Nat King Cole... or he's one of the people who has sung it and.. it is one of my favorite favorite songs. It's... me. WHEN I FALL IN LOVE When I fall in love it will be forever Or Ill never fall in love In a restless world like this is Love is ended before its begun And too many moonlight kisses Seem to cool in the warmth of the sun When I give my heart it will be completely Or Ill never give my heart And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too Is when I fall in love with you. And the moment I can feel that you feel that way too Is when I fall in love with you.... love is pure and true and amazing and wonderful and... beautiful and...when you fall in love.. do love right and breathe it... goodnight and...love is everything.

'evenin'

I do appologize to my lovely reader(s) that I have not been good on the upkeep of my blogg lately. Christmas and new years and all. Kinda takes a tole and takes a lot of time. EIther way I am back now and just about ready to write absolutely nothing out of the ordinary. It's late and I am tired. But I will say this - to be blessed is to be me. To realize your blessings is a gorgeous thing dear friends. And I am - that being able to say - "if it was all taken away from me tomorrow, if my life was over, how saddened I may be - ( for I wish for my life to continue for a very long time) I would have been so grateful for the amazing life that I have lead. And that dear friends is why--- we are beautiful.

'Til we meet again...

goodevening