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25 July, 2010
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10 July, 2010
Because you're mine, I walk the line...
I try to. But I do get misunderstood more times than I would like. I hate being misunderstood. As does anyone I would presume. But being misunderstood because of love and how you feel about love and/or someone kills.
Anyone who knows me knows how I feel about love. It's everything- it's oxygen. But when the one you love more than anything thinks that you want them to be miserable without you...that's not right. I believe in love, true love, everlasting love... love that surpasses the ages ( like Dracula or our Twilight friends - yes yes I know). All I can take reference from is myself and my emotions. I would break inside and out, if the one I loved left me or didn't want to be with me. I don't want the person I'm with to be just fine and dandy without me- but when I say without me.. I mean in the total sense. If we no longer were together as a couple- that's when I guess I would expect that person to yes.. be miserable. But not just being apart. I do however feel like a big part of me is missing when I am apart from the one I love and wish that he was with me. But I deal with it and I cope ( not so well sometimes but I do) and I believe that I confuse this with something else.
I think that when I hear that my other half is fine without me... I imagine them not missing me or wishing that they were with me... that they would be fine without me- period. And when I think of it in that way... it hurts so bad. And I think that that is where the confusion and misunderstanding arises. I want the person Im with to function and be fine without me to feel good and have good great times... but to miss me terribly- yes. To wish they could be with me - yes. To be fine and dandy if they no longer were with me AT ALL(in the no longer a couple sense)-NO.
Does this make any sense to anyone?
On a happier note - I wanna get tattooed again :) what to do what to do? :)
I have ideas and here is a sample of some ideas:
Anyone who knows me knows how I feel about love. It's everything- it's oxygen. But when the one you love more than anything thinks that you want them to be miserable without you...that's not right. I believe in love, true love, everlasting love... love that surpasses the ages ( like Dracula or our Twilight friends - yes yes I know). All I can take reference from is myself and my emotions. I would break inside and out, if the one I loved left me or didn't want to be with me. I don't want the person I'm with to be just fine and dandy without me- but when I say without me.. I mean in the total sense. If we no longer were together as a couple- that's when I guess I would expect that person to yes.. be miserable. But not just being apart. I do however feel like a big part of me is missing when I am apart from the one I love and wish that he was with me. But I deal with it and I cope ( not so well sometimes but I do) and I believe that I confuse this with something else.
I think that when I hear that my other half is fine without me... I imagine them not missing me or wishing that they were with me... that they would be fine without me- period. And when I think of it in that way... it hurts so bad. And I think that that is where the confusion and misunderstanding arises. I want the person Im with to function and be fine without me to feel good and have good great times... but to miss me terribly- yes. To wish they could be with me - yes. To be fine and dandy if they no longer were with me AT ALL(in the no longer a couple sense)-NO.
Does this make any sense to anyone?
On a happier note - I wanna get tattooed again :) what to do what to do? :)
I have ideas and here is a sample of some ideas:
29 April, 2010
Sorry...
..might be one of the most overused words we have. Except for: and, the, it... basically. (Not basically, that was just the end of that sentence, oki then.) Why is it so overused? Do we mess up so frequently that we need say it? Or do we no longer take any care or put any weight in the word itself and its meaning? I'm not sure, either way. When I however say the word I at least try to think that I'm saying this sorry once for this situation and I do my best to never let it happen again. This is not me being holier than thow, just saying how I TRY to live my life. I do not always succeed.
But I have however proven time and time again that I mess up doing the same or similar things over and over again. Maybe my own personal measurement would have to be that I at least do it less. That sucks though. Although I feel like, I'm not perfect and I don't want to be perfect I just want to be the best me that I can be. And people who really care about me and know me, know that I don't EVER do anything to intentionally hurt anyone. My messups usually have to do with my own shortcomings in self esteem.
Sorry seems to be the hardest word. It is hard sometimes.. but when I feel as if I have done something to mess up - I will gladly deliver that sorry. And I don't ever say it without meaning it from the bottom of my heart.
I guess I hope that counts for something.
But I have however proven time and time again that I mess up doing the same or similar things over and over again. Maybe my own personal measurement would have to be that I at least do it less. That sucks though. Although I feel like, I'm not perfect and I don't want to be perfect I just want to be the best me that I can be. And people who really care about me and know me, know that I don't EVER do anything to intentionally hurt anyone. My messups usually have to do with my own shortcomings in self esteem.
Sorry seems to be the hardest word. It is hard sometimes.. but when I feel as if I have done something to mess up - I will gladly deliver that sorry. And I don't ever say it without meaning it from the bottom of my heart.
I guess I hope that counts for something.
23 April, 2010
The Profoundness.
Okay so like I said in my previous blog entry I had something really good cooking so here goes:
So what I was thinking was as follows, if you think about the message that books such as "the secret" and mindfullnes and so on and so forth have, I have come to a conclusion - the police feed more crime to happen. Why do most people become police officers? "To serve and protect and fight crime"...FIGHT CRIME. Thus CRIME is needed for policemen to have work. For a policeman to be happy at work I have a feeling they want something to do that isn't sitting behind a desk filling out paper work and eating cornflakes. (I've grown tired of the donut bit so Im going for cornflakes) No they want to catch the bad guys that do bad things... no police - no bad guys?... we can take this a step further and go... no doctors - no sick people. and so on... I realize that this is extreme and Im not saying " to hell all you cops and docs!!! we need you's no mo!!"... absolutely not. But think about it. You need disease for doctor's to have anything to do, for work. You need crime and pain and suffering for police to be needed to have anything to do...
think about it.
Good evening.
So what I was thinking was as follows, if you think about the message that books such as "the secret" and mindfullnes and so on and so forth have, I have come to a conclusion - the police feed more crime to happen. Why do most people become police officers? "To serve and protect and fight crime"...FIGHT CRIME. Thus CRIME is needed for policemen to have work. For a policeman to be happy at work I have a feeling they want something to do that isn't sitting behind a desk filling out paper work and eating cornflakes. (I've grown tired of the donut bit so Im going for cornflakes) No they want to catch the bad guys that do bad things... no police - no bad guys?... we can take this a step further and go... no doctors - no sick people. and so on... I realize that this is extreme and Im not saying " to hell all you cops and docs!!! we need you's no mo!!"... absolutely not. But think about it. You need disease for doctor's to have anything to do, for work. You need crime and pain and suffering for police to be needed to have anything to do...
think about it.
Good evening.
17 April, 2010
profound...
A very profound entry will be here shortly... I just have to gather some strength. But it will be about, police, the secret and projections... exciting ay? stick around and we'll be right back.
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