Sorry...

..might be one of the most overused words we have. Except for: and, the, it... basically. (Not basically, that was just the end of that sentence, oki then.) Why is it so overused? Do we mess up so frequently that we need say it? Or do we no longer take any care or put any weight in the word itself and its meaning? I'm not sure, either way. When I however say the word I at least try to think that I'm saying this sorry once for this situation and I do my best to never let it happen again. This is not me being holier than thow, just saying how I TRY to live my life. I do not always succeed.

But I have however proven time and time again that I mess up doing the same or similar things over and over again. Maybe my own personal measurement would have to be that I at least do it less. That sucks though. Although I feel like, I'm not perfect and I don't want to be perfect I just want to be the best me that I can be. And people who really care about me and know me, know that I don't EVER do anything to intentionally hurt anyone. My messups usually have to do with my own shortcomings in self esteem.

Sorry seems to be the hardest word. It is hard sometimes.. but when I feel as if I have done something to mess up - I will gladly deliver that sorry. And I don't ever say it without meaning it from the bottom of my heart.


I guess I hope that counts for something.